Tuesday, May 26, 2009

The Last Page

This is the last page I am going to write
I promise there won't be any lie


Words here are from the heart of mine
And there is nothing I expect to hide


Unable understand what does it mean
Once I was seeking answer but now not keen

I still remember her first smile
Along the way I lost myself for a while

I was simple honest and innocent
And i was waiting for the right moment

Now may be the star have resign
Only missing shadow was mine

I am the man searching for reasons
Standing alone on a nowhere junctions

We were stranger walking on a journey
Now I found my self standing lonely

Unsuspecting victim of desire
I walked alone on a thin wire

Now we walk on the path destined
My lonely path is without sunshine



© Rakesh Kumar

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Until I say Goodbye...

She came yesterday and sat on my desk, first and last time. To invite me on her marriage and say goodbye, the final one. I already knew that she was getting married next month and I anticipated that he might leave this place. She invited me to her wedding and said today was her last day here as she was moving ouside India. I wished her gudluck, success and happiness in all her future endeavor. I told her that I would miss her smile around here. She was telling that she would miss my hindi shayris which I hardly shared with her, very few, though i wished i could had shared more. And she said she would be in touch through orkut etc. I shifted last Monday just next to her cubicle every day and we were passing almost 5-6 times across each other daily. We never spoke. Not a single word was said beside one fainted smile. I am not complaining even I could not walked across her cubicle to say just hello. When we were sitting around few step away and we could not speak few words with each other, how could we expect to be in touch when she she would be 7 seas away. Today there was a sense of emptiness around and dull silent. I hardly used to speak with her and had only occasional talk and few exchange of scrap I had with her I could count on my finger. There is nothing for me to feel sad If I start looking at past fact and searching reason but yet there is pinch of unspoken words that will never be said. The things I always wanted to share with her as friend and colleague. The feeling I used to have when I used to enter in cafeteria or when my eyes used to search her around. There is nothing and everything at the same time. The sense of emptiness created will take some time to fill. Any way I wish her all the happines and sucsess.

Sunday, May 17, 2009

What Goes around, comes around

Looks like it has been long time since last i have written anything.yes it has been more than 2 weeks and although i was not very busy but yes i was more a bit kind of unsettle. Things moved fast at professional and personal front although nothing concrete to write about. Professionally i was busy and personally things were not easy fro me. one reason i could not write anything was that i formatted my laptop and almost 10days i was busy configuring it. On personal side i have few philosophical note to add. what goes around comes around. and life returns me things in the form which i cant not accept or when i don't expect it or when they have least value for me. looking back to past 15 days i have not made any significant value addition to my life frequently it was wastage of my time.
Finally my parent are here... I went station to pick them up and it was quite satisfying.

Saturday, May 02, 2009

End of Temptation...

I agree that I gave it without any fight
And I am left with my loneliness tonight
But I will make sure it doesn't fade away
Even though there was nothing I had to say
And I was watching let it go this way
I am not asking why i don't deserve
But this feeling I will preserve
You can laugh and say I am crazy
But I will never wonder why
For me it was like fairy tale
It is broken but not for sale
Destiny has woven this pattern
So many things I had learnt
I am exploring only one at time
Even there is nothing left behind
I will stand once again and fight

Copyright Rakesh kumar May 2009

A small one...

From a Hindi couplet..

I won't say it a dream as one day it will be over
I won't say it a heart as one day it will be broken
But if i say life it will go forever till death.