Decision...

Not written any thing since long time. May be so many things are passing through my mind. one good things about writing is that there must be something concrete in your mind if u want to put it down on paper. If you are not clear u can not write. Try to do it it will not make any sense to any one.
So this is the case currently with me. i am little bit confused and aimless not clear about things in life and just passing day by day. may be i am looking for my next goal or in the process of decision making. Some time u need to face such kind of situation in life it really helps to get hell out of you. some time when u want some thing u get that things not in the for u once imagined so what u are going to do. neither u accept nor u refuse it. its really going to make you insane. i have been really in such kind of situation earlier also and again the same things is before me try to make my life hell. The problem with such things that u always dreamed of such things but it has come in the form that is really not acceptable to you. Now this fight between your dreams and reality. Dreams are closed to your heart and reality is close to your mind what u are going to chose. Not an easy choice to make. Now these kind of decision make you as person what society calls now a days rational, emotional or heartless. These are terms given by society and i really don't bother about it. Some time i really feel why such situations are coming again and again before me why things that i always wanted are coming in the form that is really difficult to accept. These situation are poisoning me slowly. Things for whom once i was really desperate i am not accepting and they are not easy set of choices i am going through...