Fighting With My Own Demon

When I knew answer
But my words were absent
My mouth could not open
And was paralyzed without my action
Then I was fighting with my own demon....

Lost my self in despair and anger
When I could not go any further
Turned myself into useless ashes
My life was full of excuses
Unable to know where to begun
I was fighting with my own demon

When I was hopelessly crying
I thought my end was near and certain
Everywhere tears were rolling down
I appeared only as a clown
Then I was fighting my own demon

When I was scared and terrified
Afraid of my learning to apply

I failed whatever way I tried

People thought I was weaken
But my spirit was not shaken
Then I was fighting with my own demon

When I wandered lonely
In a strange new city

I had company of only a shining sun

Questioning about my fate chosen
Then I was fighting with my own demon

Those night when I could not sleep
Thinking about promises I could not keep

Trying to loosening then chain I was imprisoned

Then I was fighting with my own demon

When my ears were unable to listen

Surrounded with confused wisdom
I could not be what I could become
Then I was fighting with my own demon

When my heart was divided

I escaped to fight and run

No where I felt needed
like an abandoned son

Then I was fighting with my own demon

Many beautiful occasion I blew
When I shouted on you
words were not mine whom I spoken
Then I was fighting with my own demon

Since then till today
Dent I repay
Only I have to pray
While still I am fighting my own demon

(C) Rakesh Kumar July 2013