Fighting in a deep dark void
I am searching for a reason to rejoice
Clinging on so called life

With each passing day 

Cut by my own knife

Ripped, I bleed inside

And I think of myself
Floating in clouds of my thoughts
About what I was,
What I have become & what I want
How I lost to my own plot?

Worried about right and wrong
When I was weak & when strong
Eaten away from inside
Nothing but by my own lies

Chained by my fears of unknown
Who are trying me to hold
I feel paralysed

They slowly takes over me

And I close my eyes
Looking what left inside me to buy

I wander more deep in thoughts
About running from this world
But where?
With my bruised body
And soul full of blots

Finally I surrender my soul
Without knowing what I want

After taking all that I can bare
I let my spirit drown in despair

Without caring where it fall

I curled my self in a suffering ball

With blurred vision & being shattered

I want to call for help

But now it doesn't matter

Slowly I move away from light

Let myself darkness to own

I embraces it tight
While it drags my soul to a new home

© Rakesh Kumar Jan. 2016