To my wife....

After many years of drought I finally got rain
And what precious gift I have gained
God became kind and an angel he threw
Precious was the moment when I met you
You have got heart of gold
With your behaviour everyone around is bowled
You got caring and sweet nature
God now don't create a person more better
By marrying you I am truly blessed
You are exactly the way i needed
With your presence everyone is deeply touched
Can't describe how much I feel loved
You made my life so beautiful
We have become such a lovely couple
New meaning to my life you gave
With words on my heart you engraved
The way you look at me I can't tell
You give me strength whenever I fell
Being with you bring fulfillment to my life
Words are little what I write about you my wife
This poem is incomplete without words I have to say
That I love you dear every moment and every day...

(C) Rakesh Kumar Mar 2011

One More Try...

This poem I wrote to encourage all my colleagues who are dealing with some difficult time....


Nobody will know ever fully
And nobody will agree
How much you try to explain
What future for you contain
That you are sad and stressed
And how deeply you are depressed
If you feel like scream, scream
Its normal when you are not part of some one's scheme
Cry if you feel your eyes are dry
Its not only with you
Everyone has seen and gone through
Don't cut yourself and let blood flow
Use this moment to let yourself know
That how much you have grown
May be now life seem all messed
See all are smiling, beautifully dressed
Just it need your attention to shift
You too have got this wonderful gift
Called life...
And at home waits your beautiful wife
Life journey will not always be fair
But there are people who deeply care
Lift your face and looked into their eyes
Stand on your feet and give it one more try....
Don't think that you are done
Best things in your life are still waiting to come..


(C) Rakesh Kumar March 2011

To my office...

This poem I wrote for my office on recent developments where I spent some best moments of my professional life.

 

After all those years with you I spent

This way our end was not suppose to meant
Many late night sitting alone
Staying away from loved one and home
Those nights when you were left deserted
Staying with you alone i was not afraid
Early morning when you were silent
I sacrificed my sleep so pleasant
Moments we spent together
When things looked so better
Journey full of excitement and fun
Never thought so early this day would come
Remember those stress, tension and worries
Argument when no one seemed to agree
Going ahead challenges we found new
And the emotion we went through

While days and years went by
So many friends already said goodbye
Many times when i was tempted to leave
Thinking how it would be perceived
Now no one understand how I felt
When our separation of words spelt
That you would not be part of my life anymore
Being with you so much I adored
Feeling helpless hearing from someone
And so weak that I cant take even any action
Does any one cares how bad I feel abandoned
Without my wish life has been auctioned
This is not what I expected
The way I am looked  doubted
I never felt being so useless
Affected by many decision baseless
Lying numb I feel paralyzed
No courtesy and I don't want be advised
Though I loved and enjoyed working with you
But now its time to say final adieu

 

(C) Rakesh Kumar Mar 2010.

Dreams in my eyes...

Dreams in my eyes and mud in my shoes
I am fighting without care what I have to lose
People around me are only to abuse
To create doubts and fuel reasons to argue
Battered and broken, bruised body is aching
These pains are only just for faking
I don't care and keep on walking...

(C) Rakesh Kumar feb 2011.

Where art thou...

My dear where will you meet
Hit by a car on the crowded street
Or in tsunami wave on a lonely seashore
From a apartment floor when i fall
Or in the playground hit by a cricket ball
May be in a bomb blast in crowded mall
Or crushed as a insect somewhere while I crawl
May be now you don't come to such places
As these are happening since million ages
Meeting on these places will not be sweet
Tell me, where are you find mostly these days
I want my meeting with you exciting and complete
As only once I want to taste your bliss
I don't want to meet you on a regular place
Request you to consider my simple urge
Come only when I feel reach far above
When I am lying in the arms of my love
And I am giving her a kiss
Nothing more left for me then to wish
Only that moment I want you to come
Meet me and give me freedom
Death' only then I want to embrace you
And call my life adieu............

(C) Rakesh Kumar Feb. 2011

Its not me

There is no me any more
The me is shaken, The me is doubetd
The me is confused, the me is frighted
Why becuase I doubted for momnet
Only a moment when trust was absent
And them my mind took me control
Peace and love was all what he stole
No one will notice ever
But I label myself as broker
As long there it remain
I will be tied in the misery chain
It hurted me and I am still feeling sore
Unless it heels, there will not be me any more

(C)Rakesh Kumar Feb 2011

Your smile is highest high
I forget all my cry

Your voice is so deep
I forget years of weep

Your touch is so sensual
It gives my life fuel

Your look is so innocent
I experience divine moment

Your love has no measure
I consider it precious treasure

Your laugh stops time
I cant compare that rhyme

(C) Rakesh kumar Jan 2010

While I Slept

While I slept
The whole country wept

Television was on and news channel was running on
Showing many important event that were gone

News about many new cases of corruption
Debate on why there was no action

How many farmers committed suicide
Why victims compensation had been denied

Possibilities of drought had deepen
And talk about increase in inflation

Prices of vegetables were touching sky
There were tears in so many eyes

In remote village lovers were killed
On corruption charges ministers were grilled

There were concern on tiger numbers
And how minister had grabbed land acres

Amount of money stored in Swiss bank
Why India was unable to build weapon and tank

There were news and day's horoscope
And advertisement of a beauty soap

All were news and important talk
I turned my head to look at clock

It was just only two past midnight
I was wondering if world was alright

In couple of hours how much I aged
In news end of the world predicted

In the evening things were great
Even earth had kept its rotate
Though reporters were questioning its fate

I was terrified and ashamed
But no one was there to be blamed

So many things and I peacefully slumbered
Just in couple of hours my soul was murdered

Now things were not meant to accept
I was regretting why I had slept


(C) Rakesh Kumar Jan 2011

A month to go...

Its exactly one month to go for my marriage. It feels so exciting and great. Can't wait any longer to be with her. I don't know how she has touched my life so deeply in such a short span of time and how last two month has passed. Most of my preparation is well on track.

15 days of...

This is how I look after 15 days without no shave and then after shave.

Life as Today

Lets examine how things in life arranged
How our life has progressed and changed

How much are we busy running life race
We don't have time to meet face to face

When was last time when we stopped and had a look
Though we spent daily our time on facebook

We don't have any time to share with  parent
Though we tweet about ourselves every moment

Many hours we spent time on mobile phone
Though at the end of day we are left  alone

We are scared and fighting to survive
Our life runs only on gadgets and device

This is so called our definition of being social
Sitting with some friends we open whisky bottle

Now we don't heed what mother tells
Only we give her occasional yell

We are confused with culture and tradition
We don't care how much our value system is broken

To cover long distance we have a car
But from our inner self we are very far

For others we don't have love and affection
Gadgets and materialistic stuff only gets our attraction

How we have destroyed our lovely nature
We are the most wildest creature

Though our living years has become long
But can we call ourselves as being strong

On our manners we never put any effort
But we have lot to spent on fancy dress and T-Shirt

We don't know now beauty of Sun and Sky
Television serials we have to feed our eye

When was the last we spoke sweet words
We don't remember early morning chirping of birds

We are only ourselves to cheat
This is the way our life gets daily treat

We have progressed and covered so much distance
But we have not been able to reach our self conscience

(C) Rakesh Kumar Jan. 2011

2011: The year ahead...

Looking forward to 2011. I would say that I am going turn this year into one of big milestone in my life and I dedicate this year to my growth with big leaps and jumps. The aim of this year is to grow in all direction leaps and bound personally as well as professionally. Its about realization of dreams. Putting things on fast track. This year is about turning things into great forever. This year is about to grow in all possible way.....

Looking forward a year full of fun and luv, Visiting new places. Accelerating and realizing my professional growth and goals. The year ahead would be about exploring, starting new avenues both personally and professionally.

Welcome 2011...

Wishing you all a very happy new year
I thought a bit about how 2010 had appeared

There were moments of ups and downs
I lost many battle of  crown

I was abandoned and no body cared
Found myself in state of despair

I sighed on how things used to be
So many changes I could not get to agree

Many times I didn't like what I get to see
Complained how life didn't treat me fairly

Things were hopeless without any light
But I got up and decided to fight

Occasionally I found losing senses in my mind
Though I didn't stop even when I was unsatisfied

Looking around I thought many things gone wasted
Pretty girls whose kisses remain untasted

Remember when I desperately tried to chase
Or when I was scared and covered my face

Even though I had smile and laughs
I found myself broken in many halfs

What were my suffering I was  not even sure
Though I went on searching for the cure

Killed those excuses and reason of all
All I had to do was listen inner call

Now this is a year for me to reborn
Transform myself in to a raging storm

(C) Rakesh Kumar Dec 2010.

2010: A Retrospection

Looking back to year 2010, I would say this year was very exciting, fun filled year in most of the aspects. Last year I dedicated this year for travelling new places and I think it was really fulfilling at this front. I visited many new places and cities. It started with visiting USA again, Baltimore, New york in freezing cold weather and it was amazing experience. I went to south India trip with parent, I visited Rameshwaram, Kanyakumari, Madurai and Kodaikonal. Later I visited to Andaman island, it was truly memorable experience, exploring lonely beaches, scuba diving was never to forget. This trip was first personal trip in my 10 years of professional life. Later on I visited Europe, Dublin, Ireland. It was memorable one. Not to forget journey of my heart that begin. Its was about marriage, a journey that I would be starting in Feb 2011. already busy in its preparation..

Figments...

While I drank glasses of water few
Thinking about my being with you

The first time I heard your voice
I was left with no other choice

Each passing day you are becoming more lovable
Nothing is like you even if I search in google

Things you spoke about in last couple of weeks
Sweet among them was intention of pulling my cheeks

There are many things that make you sweet
Your deepest desire to tickle my feet

You are sweet due to many other factor
Request by you for sleeping on my shoulder

I am deeply craving for this drug
The way you describe to give me a hug

Nothing is compared to this bliss
Just imagining about your sweet kiss.

How much you call your words nonsense
Every time I hear them I lose my senses

Nothing is more beautiful reading those mails
Daily you write them without any fail

Since ages it seems you have been known
Even your silence says lot over phone

(C) Rakesh Kumar Dec. 2010

2010: A Retrospection

Looking back to year 2010,I would say this year was very exciting, fun filled year in most of the aspects. Last year I dedicated this year for travelling new places and I think it was really full filling on this front. I visited many new places and cities. It started with visiting USA again, Baltimore, New york in freezing cold weather and it was amazing experience. I went to south India trip with parent, visited Rameshwaram, Kanyakumari, Madurai and Kodaikonal. Later I visited to Andaman island, it was truly memorable experience exploring lonely beaches, scuba diving was never to forget. This trip was first personal trip in my 10 years of professional life. Later on I visited Europe, Dublin, Ireland. It was also a memorable one. Not to forget mentioning other special thing, the journey of my heart that began this year. Its was about marriage, a journey that I would be starting in Feb 2011. Already busy in its preparation...

 

    Professionally it lacked bit challenges and growth as expected specially at later half however it was relaxing and in way it helped me to explore other side of me. Looking ahead year 2011 as a path breaking year with more growth, excitement and full of luv. Happy and prosperous New year 2011 to everyone...

For Deepti...

This poem I wrote for most special person in my life, 'Deepti' only....

You are so innocent and so sweet
Whatever way I look you are so complete
Since many years I was searching only You
Meeting with you gave my life meaning new
Just in a meeting you became my soul mate
You are special with no one I can equate
Before you my life was dead and boring
You are simple, cute and amazing
I want to hold your hand and walk
Lost forever with you in endless talk
I am feeling like reaching on cloud nine
How do I believe that you have become mine
I am the patient and you are my doctor
Want this feeling to stay forever
Nothing more that I have to say
I will love you, past, present and always....

(C) Rakesh kumar Nov 2010

Far there in the sunsihine
Are my highest aspirations
I may not reach there
But I can look up and see their beauty
Believe in them
And follow where they lead...

Only as high as I reach can I grow
Only as far as I seek can I go
Only as deep as I look can I see
Only as much as I dream can I be...

I said 'Yes'

Yes. I said 'Yes' to her.  I met her during my dewali vacation trip and and my heart said 'she is the one'. Only in first meeting. I called my parent and gave my permission to go ahead. I never had this feeling before. It feels so different..

This I wrote for her only...

I never had this feeling before
You are the one whom my heart adore

Now it feels so different
Before you this feeling was absent

My days were dull and evening silent
You came as source to sweet fragrant

Sound of your voice is like butter
Sweet and smooth like an old liquor

It makes me smile, lift my mood
Turn me upbeat like a soul food...

I never heard words so mooth and silky
They can turn a sunny day into cloudy

In my life you are a sweetest doll..
You have become to me from none to all


(c) Rakesh Kumar Nov 2010.

Three years gone by..

This poem wrote on completing 3 years in my current job..

Three years gone down the line

Not sure if I have grown or decline

Never had moment when my interests were absent
Though sometime I had complain about my treatment

Looking back through the years

I had many occasion to cheers

Sometimes things were up and sometimes low

Sometime I was leader and sometime only a shadow

Years passed has been fun and excitement 

Time here have been completely different

Occasionally things were not certain

I was searching ground for my action

Thinking about my next goal

Should I seek a higher payroll

Should I open myself for new callings

Wait and watch for things

And remain in current being

Sometime I feel being all alone

Do I lack courage to get out of comfort zone

Today I am feeling bit old and dry

Spread wings for new things to try

(C) Rakesh Kumar Nov. 2010

Trip to Andaman Island

After much planning, discussion and effort and first time in 10 years of my professional career, I and my friend Venketesh Joshi decided to visit Andaman We had zeroed on 2 places Lakshdeep and Andaman but finally were able zeroed on Andaman due to cost of ticket so we booked the ticket initially for 3 days but after couple of days we realised that its would not be sufficient. So we extended the trip for 2 more days and re booked our returning ticket once again.

We took early morning flight from Jet airways to Chennai and from their 9:30 flight to Port Blair. Two and half hour journey to Port Blair we spent peacefully mostly while sleeping however only first view of Andaman Island was breath taking. It was drizzling while we landed. We already had our travel packages booked and cab was waiting outside Port Blair airport. 

In couple of conversation with driver we had knew that people understand Hindi well there. We landed in our room and after a nice warm lunch our trip started. We went to visit sea museum, on the way we pass through Rajeev Gandhi sport complex and drive view was amazing. There was nothing much in the museum beside some marine life and some photos we haded to Corbyn Beach. We had some photo session and had long walk it was evening time and there were not many people on the beach. We came back and moved to cellular jail. after getting ticket inside the light and sound show was cancelled due to rain so we had museum and jail visit only. It was emotional experience knowing freedom fighter struggle and their trauma. We spend couple of hours and came back to hotel. In the evening we went to try some local sea food to lighthouse restaurant had dinner and crashed on the bed.

9th September

The whole day was booked for visiting couple of island. After break fast we headed to Rajeev Gandhi sports complex from there we took the ferry for Ross island. Ross island used to be residence for English governors during their rules. The island is now under Indian navy control and it 3-4 kms from main island around 20-30 minute ferry joinery. We saw old building water pool and deers roaming the island. Now its deserted and its broken houses gives it wild feeling. Next we moved to Viper island there was nothing much. It used for hanging prisoner during British rule. While cellular jail was being constructed some prisoners were kept here. We had lunch on the ferry itself which was included in the package.


On the way we saw many Indian navy ships and docks. Next we went to North Bay island (coral island) we took a glass bottom boat and short trip to corals we could see coral through boat glass bottom. we landed on beach and had snorkeling which was included in the package there was nothing on beach it had broken rocks and coral reefs, was not very exciting however we had fun of going in to the water. We came back it was late in the evening had dinner.

10 the Sept.

In the morning we went coral and one another museum. One was about island natives and other was about sea life corals and its inhabitants. We had lunch at blue island restaurant and went to catch inter island ferry for Havlock island. Indian shipping corporation run ships to Havlock island and its 2:30 hours sea journey. We were very excited about seating on cruise. Ship was bit humid and hot so as it stared we came on the deck had some photo. I spent whole ship journey watching around and passing by island, blue sea water while listening my ipod. As we landed our cab driver was waiting he took us to our our resort in havlock. Basically all the resorts in Havlock as located beside ea beaches and the beaches are named from 1-7. After getting refreshed we went to Radha Krishan beach which was around 16 kms. The car journey was through deep jungles and farms. It was getting dark when we landed there but we were able to see sun set view and it was once in life time experience. The waves on beach were exciting. it was already dark when we came back to our resort. In the evening we met couple of other foreign visitors while sipping beer and food.

11th sept.

We got early morning 4 am to see sun rise. Sun rise early in this part of the world. Although it has same time zone as Indian mainland. I walked few step to beach and sun was already out. The water in the morning at Beach was far away and i could walk around 1 km deep in side sea. though it was close to resprt in the evening.  I could see small fishes stuck in sand craters. We had some photos and had walk on the beach. We came back to hut. We decided go far scuba diving though I was bit scared but my cab driver encouraged us to take it. We went a near by Dive-India centre we tried with diving suit. There was 1 more Israel friend with us. We took the speed jet boat to go to Elephant beach which half hours journey. We stopped boat in the water and walked to sea shore it was all forest around and nothing else besides white sand and fishes.


After couple of round of testing in shallow water and much effort and persuasion I was ready to go in to deep water with my trainer. I decided to walk in the water as i went deeper into the water the inside view was amazing. Different varieties of fishes swimming around me. I was surrounded by big and small fishes and tortoise. I was into a whole new world and it was amazing experience. I want in to 4-5 meter deep water twice and spend around 15-20 min each time. While coming back we again stopped to a deserted side of beach in shallow water, while other went for diving I played around with dead corals and stones. We came back around 12' o' clock, took bath at hut and came to our resort. It was getting cloudy and i order lunch to siting at beach side place. while my lunch was prepared sea had become amazing beautiful Cloudy blue sky and water deep green.  I had lunch and went hut to take some rest. We had plan to visit Radha Krishan beach but It was raining so we decided to called off that plan and spent time at resort only. In the evening I met couple of my people visitors and i went for a long run till other end of beach with one of fellow tourist and it was dark thrilling experience while returning back In the night invited couple of them to share my beer. We had long discussion about India and Israel about people and places.

12th Sept.

We got up early in the morning and went for walk on beach side sea was far away and i went deep for a walk. we had break fast and went to Radha Krishan beach.
RK beach is very big beach with high waves. We went for a long walk along beach side. It was sunny and bright day I could not wait any longer to jump in the sea. I spent around one hours jumping  and playing with waves and floating around. We came out in the after noon the cab took us island Port where we had our returning ferry waiting. We took the ferry to Port Blair promising to return Havlock island once again. Its nothing less than paradise on the earth. We reached to hotel put our luggage and got relaxed. Went for light and sound show in the cellular jail. It was a bit emotional experience. had dinner and slept.

13th sept.

Next morning we found that we cant go to Mud island as it was closed being that day monday. So we went to Mount Harriet a 20 km hill top journey after going to chttan shaw mill, the oldest Shaw mill in Asia as considered. we went to Wandoor beach located inside Rajeev gandhi national park, 30 kms from Port Blair. To my surprise this beach very clean and green and deserted. It was drizzling though I wanted to go inside deep water. We had a long walk and and photo session at the beach side. We came back in the night we went for dinner at Lighthouse restaurant

14th sept.

We had our returning flight back we went to near by shop for some shopping we did buy some pearl items and went airport, took our flight to Chennai and then Chennai to Bangalore in the evening...

Life

Today I reveal my truest form
I always have friendship with storm

Don't want on my way wind cold and breezy
I suffer most when my paths are easy

A difficult hill excites me most
Tsunami waves are my only host

Even deep ocean cant bring inside me fear
Darkness and depth compels me to go near

A desert drives me only to walk
I find rest only in havoc

To get the sympathy is not my desire
I smile only when I touch the fire

Many times I defeated my destiny
I never asked for any one's courtesy

My blister are source to coolness
Thorns in my body gives calmness

Many times I have been fallen and thrown
I get flexibility by breaking my bone

My scars are nothing but pride
I considered them beautiful bride

I don't remember since when I am alone
Fighting the demons only I have grown

I always find myself in destruction
Where I take form of resurrection

Death is whom I often kiss
There I find most beautiful bliss

I get pleasure fighting cyclone
Obstacle are just another milestone

I prefer stone only to chew
Sympathy is what I always refuse

Battering only makes me better
They are my life's exciting chapter

I am always thirsty for my tears
How hard I try they never appear

My pains are just cheers to go ahead
I never listen what others had said

I am colorful when I bleed
That's the way I win and succeed

I never care about end of my breath
Life is only to facilitate my death

(C) Rakesh Kumar Oct 2010

Profession...

Welcome to the world of profession
You have come very far
Horizon was wide with money and fortune
World of excitement opened door ajar

Once you were too a shining star
On the course fought many battle and war
You dreamed and thought reaching high
You had passion and energy to fly

As times passed you sensed reality
You felt frustrated hopeless and angry
This is not for what you have came
Years after years you also learnt the game

People are looking to throw you on mat
Its races of rat and life of a cat
You were thinking of turning thing up and down
Slowly you found yourself in a world of clown

You tried to reach and win the crown
Fighting the battle you let your dreams down
Brunt your soul and passed your prime
Now you are just a victim without a crime

You are trapped and now want to scream
But you smile because you are part of a team
People smile when you walk in the door
You are just a means for them to score

Day and night you perform and work hard
End of the year you are unable to reach yard
They destroy your soul and call feedback
You need to be polite even in case of attack

A bit of improvement will do good to you
Fighting a battle you try to argue
Its hurt your pride but you keep inside
Surviving for living you avoid to collide

Always you walked on their written line
Though they were messing with your mind
This is not what you were aiming for
But this disease have got no cure

Now it doesn't mean anything to you
The way you have progressed and grew
Now you caught up with ageing
Tired of living a life faking

(c) Rakesh Kumar Oct 2010

Changed..

Nothing has changed today
We are only pretending being okay

Our mind is thinking like an old music player
Producing same old tunes and flavor

After years of knowledge and answering whys
We are standing clueless and surprised

We lack honesty and integrity
Our vision is dark and cloudy

Truth is still defeated
On the name of tradition
Blind faith is repeated

Door of hope is closed
Justice is strongly opposed

An old mother is crying
Corruption is rhyming

Night is full of darkness
Youth is walking on road aimless

Farmer is praying for rain
A daughter is put for bargain

People are thirsty for blood
Friendship is only a bluff

Path of lovers are bumpy
A child is still hungry

After years no lesson learnt
For dowry a girl is burnt

We are watching people dying
But no one is crying

We are fighting for a temple
As a human we forgot being humble

Our hands are still holding stone
This is how we have grown

We are unable to adjust
Life lacks more trust

Life is sum of only our cheating
Though We feel our heart is beating

Why are we calling ourselves civilized
On this planet we are just a creature disguised


(C) Rakesh Kumar Oct 2010

Racing Horse

I am horse of a derby race
Only runs to save others face

Every one has put bids on me
Who is telling that I am free

At the end my life will be rubbish
I am here to fullfill other's wish

I am running to meet their expectation
Thats the way my destiny has been chosen

Burden of expectation I can't speak
Deep inside I am feeling very weak

Before I was born they put me for auction
Their expectation only defined my life's action

I am tired while running since ages
Turned my life into useless ashes

Always I have to do well
Thats what I have been told

Everyone wants me alwyas to win
It seems I have not got my own will

Few want protection, few want affection
What I want has never got any attention

Few want culture and few want tradition
Following their rule my soul has been beaten

What is there whom I called my own
When my life is only for paying their loan

Neither win or nor loss is mine
To repay the debt is task assigned

(c) Rakesh Kumar Oct. 2010

New Biginning

Why not start a beginning new

Sit together and share minutes few

My heart beats only for you

Those who touch my life are only few

Looking for reason why our path crosses by

I feel lost while looking into your eye

I get distracted and start to think

Watching at your face my eyes don't blink

Today it may be just a small dream

It will be real how impossible it may seem

Just hold my hand I will never bow

Along the way I face fire or snow

Every moment I feel you are the one

Day and night I pray for our union

Create a world fair and lovely

Come lets start a new story

(c) Rakesh Kumar Oct 2010

My words...

When my words were on the ground
My life was full of flowers all around

When my words were angry
I tortured my soul deeply

When my words were stone
I was standing alone

When my words were revolution
I was leading people billion

When my words were sweet
I was having meaningless tweet

When my words were high
I was always touching sky

When my words were softer
I never got the answer

When my words were dark
I only had momentarily spark

When my words were nice
I only attracted mice

When my words were scorn
I was walking with thorn

When my words were bold
I was left shivering with cold

When my words were judgemental
I never got to see what was actual

When my words were command
I never received my demand

When my words were innocent
I was treated as patient

When my words were request
I was always suppressed

When my words were sympathy
I was looked at awfully

When my words were touchy
I was labeled being cozy

When my words were honey coated
Ants and flies were only bred

When my words were love and affection
I never created desired attraction

When my words were for forgvieness
It created an impact endless


© Rakesh Kumar Sept. 2010

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काश्मीर घाटी के नौजवानों आज मैं तुम से मुखातिब हूँ..

हाँ, अब तुम को आजादी चाहिए
बड़े हो गए हो तुम अब
कभी जिन पत्थरों से तुम बचपन मैं खेलते थे
आज उनको दूसरों पर फेकने की सामर्थ्य आ गयी है तुमको
कहाँ से आई ये ताकत, ये हिम्मत
उसी माँ के दूध को पी कर पिछले साठ सालो में तुम बड़े हुए हो
जिन पर तुम आज ये पत्थर उछाल रहे हो.
उसी माँ ने तुमको बड़ा किया, बचाया आतंकियों से, पडोसी लुटेरों से
कारगिल के वक्त तुम किधर छुप कर बैठे थे जब ये माँ गोलियाँ खा रही थी
कभी इस माँ ने डाट दिया, खाने में नमक ज्यादा डाल दिया तो
पत्थर फेकने लगे, आज तुम आज़ादी की बात कर रहे हो,
कब बंधन मैं थे तुम, पल दो पल माँ ने आँचल से तुम्हे ढँक दिया तो
तो तुम आज़ादी की बात करने लगे, माँ का आँचल जला दिया
आज तुमको उस आँचल से सांस लेने मैं तकलीफ होने लगी

तुमने कभी सोचा है जिस जमीं से संतूर की आवाज आती थी
अब वहाँ से पत्थरों के टकराने की आवाज क्यों आने लगी
कभी जहाँ की सुबह ओस की धुंध में डूबी रहती थी
वहाँ की शाम कब घर जलने के आग के धुए मैं घिर गयी
कभी तुमने सोचा की तुम्हारे जमीं के फूल कब जंगली हो गए

तुम्हारी घाटी के सेव के लाल रंग ऐसे नहीं हुए हैं
सालों हमने खून से सींचा है उस जमीं को तब उनको ये रंग आया है
और आज इन पर पत्थर उछालते हुए तुम्हारे हाथ नहीं काँप रहे हैं
इन घावों के लिए पीड़ा हमको भी है, हमारे खून मैं भी गुस्सा है,
लड़ना भी आता है हमको कविता लिखने के सिवा

© Rakesh Kumar Sept. 2010

तुम नहीं समझ पाओगे...

इस रचना के लिए मैं जयेन्द्र का आभारी हूँ और ये उसी को समर्पित करता हूँ. धन्यवाद जयेन्द्र..

लिख रहा हूँ कुछ पंक्तियाँ हर बार की तरह
तुम इसे भी नहीं पढ़ पाओगे मेरे प्यार की तरह

दिल के अरमान आज भी बेताब है पहले की तरह
मगर बरसों से लब खामोश हैं गुनाहगार की तरह

तुम्हारी खोज में खुद को समझने लगा हूँ खुदा की तरह
पैर के छाले भी ठंडक दे रहे हैं बर्फ के गोले की तरह

जिंदगी भी मेरी बन गयी है एक वेब पेज की तरह
हर हाइपरलिंक ले जा रहा है तुम्हारी तस्वीर की तरफ

क्यों जा के निकालूं अपने हलक का ये ज़हर
आदत हो गयी मुझ अब जीने की नीलकंठ की तरह

तुम्हारे दिए दिल के ज़ख्म आज भी हरे है बरसों पहले की तरह
कर्ज़दार हूँ इनका जो जीने की वजह बन गए हैं ये मेरे साँसों की तरह

हम तो हवाओं में बिखरे थे खुशबू की तरह
मुठी मैं कैद करने की कोशिस की तुमने एक जुगनू की तरह

खड़ा हूँ आज भी उस मोड पर मूर्ति की तरह
छोडा था जिस जगह हाथ मेरा तुमने एक अनजान की तरह

तुम्हारे लिए था मैं एक पुरानी किताब के एक पन्ने की तरह
साथ पावोगे आज भी तुम मुझे अपने परछाई की तरह

तुम्हारी प्यास बुझाने के लिए हम ठहरे रहे झील के पानी की तरह
चाहता तो मैं भी आकाश छू सकता था समुन्दर की लहरों की तरह

हर शाम तुम्हारी याद को भुलाया है हमने कुछ इस तरह
अपने आंशू भरे प्याले को पिया है हमने जाम की तरह

तुम तो मंदिर में आये थे एक खरीदार की तरह
खुद को सौंप डाला था हमने मगर भगवान के प्रसाद की तरह

दूर है किनारा अकेले चल पड़ा हूँ मैं मौजो की तरफ
मेरा हाल जानने के लिए आना होगा अब तुमको दरिया की तरफ


© Rakesh Kumar Sept. 2010

Meaning of Tears..

What name should I give to tears
Should I call them precious pearl
Or sweet as a innocent baby girl

Are they an early morning dew
Or result of undefined unknown view

Are they sign of bleeding heart
An output of strongest intention thwart
Or form of a crushed dream for many years
Resulted in those drops of tears

Unable to quenched after many cries
Is it the thirst of dried eyes

Are they because of suffering
Or beginning of our crumbling

Are they part of love
Comes when our feeling get shoved

Whether they expressed as victory
Or in defeat when we could not get agree

How to define and what words to say
What meaning tears have to display


© Rakesh Kumar Sept. 2010

At sea shore

Walked a distance to explore
Along the lonely sea shore

Making foot print on soft sand
I looked at red horizon expnad

Salty sea water cold and clean
Waves touching gently my feet

Far away where reaches my sight
I can see blue water kissing sky

Silence of the fallen tree
Defining a beastly beauty

Sensation of cold wind blowing
Singing of the birds flying

Never experienced feeling before
Nature beauty in its finest and pure

© Rakesh Kumar Sept. 2010

Why do I care..

When I don't have a hope for sunlight
Why do I care when is end to night

When there is no tears in my eyes
Why do I care how much I cry

When my goal is only to walk
Why do I care about time to stop

When my dreams have only cheated
Who do I care when I fainted

When you are only things I lost
Why do I care to things I got

When only your words are absent
Why do I care to whatever I listen

When your eyes have only tears
Why do I care how happy world appear

When you don't only pay attention
Why do I care about greatness in my action

When I don't understand meaning of joy
Why do I care if there is anything to enjoy

When you only burnt my picture
Who do care if my house have mirrors

When I don't have your hand to hold
Why do I care if life is full of gold

When you are only keeping deep silence
Why do I care if my heart is vibrant

When you are only at the end of journey
Why do I care to how much my path is bumpy

When I have decided only you to pray
Why do I care if temple is far away

When from my memory you are erased
Why do I care about where are you based

When I can speak with my silence
Why do I care about your presence

When my own shadow is my best friend
Why do I care how to pass my weekend

© Rakesh Kumar Aug 2010